Notes:
I spent last night, from when I got home from work to when I went to
bed, pumping out and cleaning up a 300 gallon cistern after shock-chlorinating
our well. The mud inside was an inch
deep, and I don’t think my man’s shop vac will ever be the same after this. On the plus side, we might have potable water
once the bleach dissipates, so…that was my Monday. I hope yours was better. More Love Letters! I’m getting weirdly meta here, but it all
makes sense in my headJ
PS--I really wish I was a better
artist, I’d love to be able to share the cover I describe like I see it in my
head. I’ll do a Janie and the Phantom
pic at some point, even if it’s bad, and post it here.
Title:
Love Letters
Part Thirty-Five:
A Phantom Quest
***
The package arrived about a week later,
flat and rectangular and liberally covered with bubble wrap. Ben opened it at his dining room table,
picking hopelessly at the tape that surrounded the thing before he finally gave
in and very carefully cut through the wrapping with a knife. Inside it all was the newest issue of Janie and the Phantom. It smelled delicious, like fresh ink, and Ben
shut his eyes and just inhaled for a moment before pulling the book
closer. The cover was a painting of
Janie from behind, silhouetted by a bright white light emerging from the cave
in front of her. All around was
darkness, fangs and eyes gleaming in the shadows, but Janie had beaten through
them with sword and shield, and finally reached her ultimate destination.
At least, Ben had thought it would be
her ultimate destination. Janie’s quest
had begun with a nudge from the Phantom, and ever since then she’d been finding
her way toward him, confronting and eventually conquering all sorts of
mythological stumbling blocks on her journey.
It was a familiar path, the heroine confronting challenges from within
and without to finally accomplish her goal, which Ben assumed was finding and
freeing the Phantom from his cage of solitude.
Everything had been building to this, and Ben was ready to see Janie
succeed. He turned the pages slowly,
recognizing some of the paintings from what he’d seen in Concord.
Janie made her way through the labyrinth
that surrounded the Phantom’s cage with the help of every piece of magic she’d
acquired on her journey, using them up as she went. Her shield protected her from the sleeping
dragon’s firey breath, but she had to leave it wedged in his mouth to make it
all the way across his lair. Her sword
pinned the Minotaur in place but didn’t kill him, and she had to leave it
thrust through his chest to keep him from coming after her. She used the last of Athena’s goodwill to
help her answer a riddle from a sphinx, and her beautiful mechanical bird, into
which she’d set the compass that had helped her escape from her dark and
lifeless city in the first place, finally ran out of steam just outside the
doorway to the Phantom’s cage.
Janie tried the door without much hope,
but to her surprise it was unlocked. She
let herself in to the cage and inside it was a lake, and in the middle of the
lake was a rock, and on that rock sat a man. Ben remembered a painting like this, one that
Ryan had been working on during Ben’s visit to Boston. That one hadn’t had the peaceful feeling that
this one did, though. That one had been
a study in isolation, while this one seemed more…companionable, if that word
could really apply to a painting.
A boat was moored at the base of a
small stone staircase beside the door, and Janie lowered herself into it and
rowed out to the Phantom, almost drifting away when the images she saw in the
lake distracted her. There were hundreds
of different faces and different lives, strange places and exotic creatures,
and when she looked at them Janie could feel what they were going through, the
pains and the loves and the challenges, and it was all she could do not to get
lost in someone else’s life.
When she finally got to the Phantom, instead
of looking triumphant, Janie seemed confused.
“I’m here to…to rescue you,” she said finally.
The Phantom looked amused. “Are you sure about that?”
“No,” Janie confessed. “I thought I was, but now I don’t know. You led me here, though. Isn’t this what you want?”
“I gave you a quest, Janie. You shaped
it yourself.”
“I don’t understand.”
“You needed to be free from the chains
that held you in stasis, unchanged and unhappy.
I gave you a way. It was you who decided to make me your quest, though.”
“Did I make a mistake?” Janie asked,
fear evident on her face.
“That depends on whether or not you got
anything out of your journey,” the Phantom said. “Your quest was never really about reaching
the end. It was about everything you did
along the way. You’ve gained so much.”
“But now I’ve lost it all,” Janie
protested. “I had to leave everything I
won behind in the labyrinth.”
“And yet here you stand with legs and
arms and breath and a heartbeat,” the Phantom replied. “It seems to me like you’ve still got the
most important things.”
“But what am I supposed to do now?”
Janie said. “I thought I was supposed to
save you! I don’t know how to do this if
you’re not going to be with me, and I don’t want to go back out there alone. What happens next?”
“You aren’t asking the right questions
yet,” the Phantom told her. “You get
three chances. Ask, and I’ll
answer. By the end of them, you’ll know
what the next step will be.”
Janie stared at him, serious and still
a little afraid, clearly unsure of her next move.
And then it ended. It…just ended. Wait, what?
Ben was on the phone before he knew
what he was doing. “Hello?” Ryan asked
cautiously.
“How could you end it like that?”
“Oh great, you got the book!” Ryan said. “Wow, I didn’t think it would make you call,
though. Hi.”
“Hi.”
Now that he took a moment to collect himself, Ben realized how glad he
was to hear Ryan’s voice. “Thank you for
sending it to me, I love it, but…the ending.
I thought for sure Janie’d be freeing the Phantom from his cage and they’d
go on to Elysium together.”
“I thought so too at first, but then I
realized that Elysium isn’t the place for them.
I’m not even sure that it exists.”
“But Janie’s been wanting to go there
ever since book two.”
Ryan sighed. “Yeah, I know. Believe me, I’m getting all sorts of shit for
this, but in the end I couldn’t do it the other way. Riding off into the sunset just wasn’t the
right move for Janie, or for the Phantom.
More than half of the feedback has been positive, mostly because fans
know I’m going to have to write at least one more volume to tie everything up
now, but there are plenty of people out there who feel…” Ryan paused for a moment. “—betrayed in every way, you horrible person,”
he said, sounding as if he were reading from something. “How dare you do this to us? How could you lead your readers on like
this? If I don’t get an HEA I’m going to
hunt you down and break your knees.”
“Holy shit,” Ben said faintly. “That’s terrible.”
“Eh, it’s fandom, terrible sometimes
goes with the territory,” Ryan replied, pretty much unperturbed. “People who make threats are blocked from the
forums and Jasmine keeps a list of them, just in case something actually
happens.”
“And I thought the New York Times could
be a harsh critic.”
Ryan laughed. “Now you know. I generally leave the social media monitoring
to Jasmine, if I didn’t I’d go crazy reading reviews. A few of these made her swear so bad that I
had to check them out, though. It’s only
been out for a few weeks and it’s already my bestselling book, though, so I
must be doing something right.”
“I like it,” Ben reassured him. “I was surprised by it, but I think it’s more
interesting than Janie getting her ending here.”
“Thanks,” Ryan replied, sounding a
little shy. “I’m glad you do.”
The silence that followed was just a
little awkward, not bad considering they hadn’t talked in over three
months. They’d been texting steadily for
the past week, but it was a different thing to hear Ryan’s voice in his
ear. “How’s your family?” Ben asked at
last.
“They’re really good. You know Molly and Joey are back in school,
right? Joey’s doing so much better now,
it’s amazing. Melissa got Uncle Bill to
hand over the trust, and there’s a lot more in it than Mom thought, so that’s
good. Melissa’s also getting the new DA
to look into allegations of fraud and intimidation concerning Bill’s law firm,
which is even better. Cheryl got back
from the rehab clinic this week and she’s doing a lot better, going to AA
meetings and volunteering to organize the police fundraiser this Halloween…it’s
really good. So much better. Except Jasmine and I had to let our apartment
go in Boston, but that’s okay. Lennie
and Grant are pregnant so they’re looking for something just for them and the
baby now anyway.”
“Big changes,” Ben commented. “So Jasmine’s still with you in Concord,
then?”
“Yeah, she’s pretty much made herself
at home. I’d hand the phone over so she
could say hi but she’s actually out on a date right now.”
“How long do you think you’ll stay
there?”
“Probably through Christmas,” Ryan said,
and Ben was glad Ryan could actually give a time, even if it was distant. It meant he was thinking about it, at
least. “After that, I’m not sure what I’ll
do.”
“I have it on good authority that
Africa is a great place to work through a personal crisis.”
“I hope I don’t have to go quite that
far to work things out,” Ryan chuckled, and Ben found an offer for Ryan to come
to Denver on the tip of his tongue. He
didn’t say it, although he desperately wanted to. It was still too early.
Instead he said, “Tell everyone hi from
me, okay?”
“I will. So…is calling each other back
on the books, then?”
“I’d say so,” Ben replied, trying not
to sound too eager. Calling Ryan had
been a reflex, but not one he regretted.
“Then I’ll call you tomorrow.”
“Good.”
Ben cleared his throat. “So, as
one of your voracious fans, I have to ask: what happens in the next book?”
“You’re just going to have to wait and
see,” Ryan replied loftily, and hung up before Ben could grill him anymore. He called right back, though. “Bye.
I meant to say bye first,” he added sheepishly.
“Bye, then.”
“Bye.”
There was silence for a long moment, then Ryan laughed. “Okay, I can’t be the one to hang up this
time, I already feel like an idiot for the first time around.”
“Goodbye,” Ben said, then hung up the
phone. He set it aside and looked down
at the last page of the book, then turned back to the beginning and started reading
it all over.
I liked the ending of Ryan's book and I'm glad everyone is moving forward in their lives, because that's what we do. But I don't understand what's going on with Ben. Three months and it's still too soon to see Ryan? Why? They both are done with their major work projects. Can they work on their relationship now, whatever that may be?
ReplyDeleteWorking is happening, and will continue. I'll get them face to face soon, I promise, darlin.
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WE've got our set-up: the Boston apartment is gone, family stuff is working out, books are published/in the process... We await what happens next with bated breath!!
DeleteMe too! I keep thinking, "This is the one where I wrap it up," and then it keeps going on. I swear I'll get there!
DeleteWell if you wrap up things too too quickly, we might all "yell" at you... You just can't win Cari!!
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I'd be happy with breaking even at this point, my dear:)
DeleteI hope the rest of your week goes better. As for this chapter, are both Ben and Ryan too involved to see the parallels between the book and their lives? It's no wonder Ryan's book doesn't have an HEA yet. but I have full faith in them and you. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteMy week got a lot better, thanks, darlin. And yeah, the guys have been kind of blinded by the trees and couldn't see the forest, but I'm reeling them in:)
DeleteHave you ever considered actually writing Janie and the phantom. Or would be awesome and I know a lot of people would love it. I love this Chp. I can't wait for more!!
ReplyDeleteI'd love to write Janie and the Phantom, but I'm not a good enough artist to pull it off on my own. I am going to do a few pictures to post here, though, just for interest's sake. I'm glad you're enjoying the story!
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