Notes:
Some of you may read this and think to yourselves, “Oh, she's just cooking up an over-the-top homophobe for us now.” But the person I’m basing a certain uncle on
is actually a real person to whom I have the great displeasure of being
related. While he’s not as well-off as I
portray this character, he is ultra-conservative, so controlling and abusive
neither of his children want anything to do with him, and almost got into a
fistfight with my father at my grandmother’s funeral because of what he said
about my mom, who is his sister. So yes, the misanthrope is
real, guys. Have a nice confrontation!
Title:
Love Letters
Part Thirty:
Speak Up or Get Out
***
In the end, it wasn’t for Ryan or even
for himself that Ben rocked the boat. It
was for Cheryl, and in retrospect he was just as shocked about it as everyone
else seemed to be.
On Sunday the Kuzniar house was filled
with people, nearly thirty of them to be exact.
The adults milled around eating, drinking wine—so much wine, too much
wine, it didn’t take much imagination to see how someone could become an
alcoholic in this environment—and telling stories, while the kids went outside
and played croquet, or actually played something more along the lines of “take
shots at each other with balls and mallets and run around screaming,” which looked
like a lot more fun to Ben. The
teenagers secreted themselves away in the rec room after swiping half the food,
and for a while Ben thought this was as rough as it would get. There were plenty of snarky,
falsely-sympathetic endearments directed toward Cheryl, Ryan, DeeDee and the
kids, but more of the family seemed to be genuinely sympathetic, and only a few
people had batted an eye when Ryan introduced Ben around, so that was
good. No one seemed to want to hang onto
his company for too long either, so Ben could drift around the periphery from
group to group when Ryan was called away to help his mom or, more often, handle
something with Joey. He learned a lot
about the Kuzniar clan in general that way.
They tended toward white collar jobs—plenty
of lawyers, a few doctors and several accountants. Most of the women went lovely but
conservative with their appearances: floral dresses, high heels, tasteful
jewelry and only one piercing in each ear.
The men wore slacks and polo shirts, or rarely, a sports jersey that got
them some ribbing but was generally acceptable.
Ben saw no tattoos anywhere; Ryan seemed to have the monopoly on those,
and he was wearing a lightweight, long-sleeved shirt despite the heat that
covered most of them. The part of Ben
that hated this wanted to rip the shirt off of his boyfriend and show everyone
here just how gorgeous he looked, but that wasn’t possible. It was a little disconcerting to Ben to
realize that in some ways, he blended in with this crowd perfectly. Professionals, nice but unimaginative
dressers, adept at keeping their distance while maintaining a veneer of
politeness. It must have been absolute
hell on Ryan to grow up in a place like this, when his passions took him in
such a dramatically different direction.
What the Kuzniar’s didn’t say was almost as interesting as what they did. After half an hour of wandering, Ben learned
that Brody was still something of a taboo subject among the family while Cheryl
was fair game. There were plenty of
stilted conversations about “Cousin Billy,” who after a few minutes Ben learned
was Uncle Bill’s only son, and apparently back in jail after another “incident.” “Thank goodness he has Cathy and her husband,”
people would say over and over again.
Cathy was Bill’s daughter and little Grace’s mother, and no one seemed
to remember her poor husband’s name.
People tried to talk about
Joey, but it was clear that they were mostly just ignorant about him, and spoke
in hushed tones about how “sad it was that he was so slow,” and “poor little
Molly, havin’ to live with such a family.”
Then they’d notice Ben and reassure him that they thought Ryan was “doing
a wonderful job trying to step in and set things right, he always comes when
his mama calls!”
“His brother would be proud of his
efforts,” one heavy-handed man said as he clapped Ben on the shoulder. “At least the kid’s givin’ it a shot. What is it you do again, young man?”
I’m
a New York Times bestselling author, you condescending piece of shit,
Ben wanted to say, but he didn’t. Saying
that was the sort of thing that made people want to prolong the conversation,
and that was the last thing he wanted right now. “I’m a freelance writer.”
“Oh.”
Ben escaped a moment later with a sense of grim satisfaction, and Ryan
found him a few minutes later out in front of the house, seriously considering
throwing the long-stemmed wine glass he’d been carrying as far as he could
fucking chuck it.
“You okay?” Ryan asked, wrapping his
arms around Ben’s waist and kissing the back of his neck.
“I’m fine,” Ben told him, setting the
glass down on the rail so he could turn and kiss Ryan properly. “Just working on my zen,” he said between
pecks against Ryan’s mouth that just made him want more. “How much longer is this supposed to last?”
“Mmm, I think Mama’s going to start
cutting the cakes in half an hour or so,” Ryan replied, closing his eyes and
soaking up the affection like he was starved for it. Fuck it, he probably was. “After that we’re in the final count.”
“Thank god.” Ryan pulled Ben close again and they lost
themselves in kissing, not even noticing the champagne-colored Lincoln Towncar
that pulled up right in front of the house and parked in such a way that no one
would be able to get their own cars past it.
Two men and a woman got out of it, the woman holding a wiggling toddler
in a frothy white dress, and headed for the front steps. Ben didn’t pay them much heed until one of
them spoke, in a stentorian voice that the people behind the house could
probably hear.
“For the love of Jesus, don’t put your
queerness on display, Ryan,” he boomed.
Ryan jumped back with a start and Ben got a good look at the
speaker. “There are impressionable young
minds here, and I don’t want any of them tempted to turn their backs on God and
go down your path.”
The man was about Ben’s height, wearing
a well-tailored linen suit and a white shirt that matched his perfectly-coiffed
white hair. He had a thick grey mustache
and wore a pair of gold-rimmed spectacles that accentuated the lines beneath
his pale grey eyes, but instead of making him look old it just made him look
powerful. By comparison, the young man
with the receding hairline and deep worry lines beside his mouth was positively
washed out, and the woman didn’t fare much better, her pale pink lips thin and
disapproving. The only other person in
the group with any sense of liveliness was the baby, and Ben had no doubt that
would be scolded out of her as soon as she was old enough to acquire a sense of
shame.
“Uncle Bill,” Ryan said quietly,
cementing Ben’s instant dislike into hatred with the apprehension in his voice. Bill didn’t say anything else, just turned
and entered the house like he owned it, completely disregarding the “Please
ring the doorbell” sign that they’d hung there this morning to keep Joey from
going mad trying to count everyone who came inside. Ryan let out a quiet groan and followed him
inside, and Ben trailed after them, feeling like he was watching a train wreck
unfold in slow motion.
Uncle Bill apparently had a word for
everyone, and none of them were nice. “Cousin
Sissy,” he greeted DeeDee’s sister, “you’re looking positively jaundiced in
that color, my dear. I would’ve gone with
something other than yellow considering your complexion.”
“Matthew,” he said to the hearty man
who’d tried to interrogate Ben earlier. “I
see you’re still buying your suits at Men’s Warehouse. Your firm’s not doing well enough to let you
afford something properly bespoke?”
“I, uh…actually, we just closed a case
against the state for—”
“For a piddling, piss-poor amount,”
Bill cut off. “Oh, I know all the
details of it; the attorney general and I had a good laugh over it the other
day.” Bill shook his head. “If you’re going to do something stupid like
take on a class-action lawsuit for some whiny little fishermen complaining
about pollution, then you should have had the balls to go for the throat,
boy. The government can be a gold mine
if you squeeze them the right way.”
“I…uh…”
“Precisely,” Bill said with a sneer
before moving on to the kitchen. People
seemed to melt out of existence as he came close, and Ben could see why.
DeeDee was in the kitchen, putting the
newest batch of her fried chicken out on the platter. “DeeDee,” Bill announced, making her jump up
and almost spill the chicken.
“Oh, William!” She put the food down, wiped her hands on her
apron and reached out to pull him into a hug.
“Welcome!”
“I’d rather you didn’t touch me until
you’ve properly washed up, DeeDee,” Bill said, forestalling her with a raised
hand. “I don’t care to allow my suit to
be soiled if I can help it.”
“Oh.
Of course.” They exchanged a
little cheek kiss instead. “And Robert,
Cathy! It’s so lovely to see you both.”
“Thank you, Aunt DeeDee,” Cathy said,
shifting her kicking toddler in her arms.
“And there’s the pretty little birthday
girl!” DeeDee added, beaming. “Hi,
Gracie! You can just let her down if you’d
like, Cathy honey, she won’t be able to grab anything in here that might get
her into trouble.”
“I’d rather not,” Cathy said. Grace squealed and Cathy blushed
uncomfortably.
“Well then, at least let me make you up
a plate of food to take outside,” DeeDee tried again, her constant smile
finally beginning to falter. “I’ve got
some fresh chicken, and there’s potato salad and hush puppies and corn on the
cob, and I’m about to do some okra.”
At this Bill actually chuckled and
shook his head. “DeeDee, every time I
wondered why my brother had bothered to marry you, a taste of your cooking
would remind me. But no, we’ve already
eaten. I’d prefer it if we could simply
cut the cakes and eat them now so as to spend as little time as possible out in
the sun and the heat. Too much sunshine
is bad for Cathy’s complexion; she inherited her mother’s tendency to turn into
a tomato when she goes outside.”
“Of course,” DeeDee said, now just
resigned. “Boys, could you help me take
the cakes outside to the dessert table?” she asked Ryan and Ben.
“Sure, mom,” Ryan said, grabbing the
pineapple upside down and Joey’s three-tiered chocolate monstrosity. Ben got Grace’s and a red velvet that said Happy Birthday Sissy! and DeeDee managed
the last three by herself. Neither Bill
nor his daughter and son in law offered to help.
Outside things were much less tense;
some of the kids had started a water-balloon game, and a lot of the adults had
moved from wine to beer. Belts had been
loosened, heels had been left on the porch in favor of wandering barefoot through
the grass, and as soon as people saw the cakes coming out they mobbed them.
The happy birthday song, as sung by
three dozen semi-inebriated people trying to remember seven different names at
the end of it, was pretty hilarious.
DeeDee took care of the cutting and made sure everyone celebrating a
birthday got a piece of their cake first, then let the rest of the family have
at them. Soon everyone was chewing on a
slice of cake, and Ben hoped that everyone’s mouths would be too full to make conversation.
Unfortunately, there was no stopping
some people from being assholes.
“Ryan,” Joey said softly, tugging on his
uncle’s arm as he looked at the late arrivals.
He had chocolate smeared over his mouth, and he shied away when Ryan went
to wipe it clean. “Ryan, plus four? Four?”
“Yes, plus four,” Ryan said patiently as
he finally got the worst of the frosting off with the wet napkin he held.
“Plus four what?” Bill demanded,
rolling his eyes as he looked at Joey. “Lord
above, is he still doing that ridiculous counting? It’s a sick compulsion, that sort of
thing. Now that his father is gone, I
don’t hold out much hope for your grandson ever being able to live in society like
a normal human being, DeeDee,” he said, completely ignoring Joey’s glare. “Brody can never be replaced, you know, not
with your queer exhibitionist of a youngest son and certainly not with whatever
trash Cheryl is associating with these days.”
Cheryl, standing not ten feet away quietly chatting with one of the
cousins, shut her eyes tight before downing the rest of the wine she was
holding.
“William,” DeeDee began, trying to calm
things down, but some men were made for the soapbox. He reminded Ben of some of the politicians he’d
met at fundraising events: quick with an opinion and not really interested in
anything anyone else had to say.
“I’m afraid the best of your brood is
gone now,” Bill continued in full voice.
“My brother Joseph would be rolling over in his grave to see how they’d
turned out. Pamela is carrying far too
much weight, and of course, your youngest,” he added with a sneer, “is hardly
fit for polite company, especially not with that man accompanying him. No,
Brody was the best. If only he’d had the
sense to marry better, he might have really made something of himself.”
“Minus one!” Joey suddenly shouted at
Bill, surprising everyone. “Minus
one! Minus one!”
“What in God’s name are you tryin’ to
say, boy?” Bill demanded.
“I think he’s telling you to leave,”
Ryan said, his voice totally flat.
“Well, lucky for me I don’t have to
listen to the ramblings of a special
child,” Bill said with finality, but Joey just kept yelling. Molly came out of the house and tried to help
Ryan calm him down, but Joey was red-faced and just a few breaths away from
screaming now. “For the love of God,
shut your boy up!” Bill yelled at Cheryl, who broke out of her frozen stupor
and went to Joey’s side, pulling him close and whispering in his ear. He calmed
down marginally with his mother’s presence, no longer yelling, but he was still
breathing in heavy, angry gasps and giving Bill a look that should have struck
him dead.
“You can’t even control your own
children,” Bill said with a sneer. “It’s
a failing on this side of the family, I’ve noticed. Did you drink when you were pregnant with him
the way you do now? Or was he a lesson
for you from God, for not heeding His word?”
“You’re a fine one to talk about
controlling his kids,” Ben said. In that
moment, you could have heard a twig snap out on the lawn. Bill looked like he couldn’t quite believe
some nonentity was speaking to him, and the rest of the family looked on with a
combination of dread and anticipation.
“And who are you, to address me in such
a manner?” Bill said, his voice cold and dismissive. “Just another God-forsaken faggot.”
“I might be gay, but at least I’m not
in jail,” Ben replied. “Which is where
your namesake is, if I recall correctly.
For…what was it? Oh right, armed
robbery, assault and battery and illegal possession of firearms. Thanks for all the details,” he added in
Cousin Matthew’s direction. The other
man looked like he wanted to sink right into the lawn. “Hardly an upstanding citizen you produced
there.”
“I have long since disowned that bad
seed,” Bill told Ben coldly. “And if I
recall correctly, you’re not a part of this family. You’re not even on the periphery of it, and
you never will be. Queers can’t get
married in North Carolina, praise God.”
“No, but we can have civil partnerships
in Denver, which is where I’m from,” Ben returned. “And we can file tax returns together and
serve openly in the military and pretty much do everything you can do, except
spout amoral bullshit with a straight face.”
There was a collective gasp. “I
just think you should examine your own job at parenting a little closer before
forcing your opinion of other people’s on everyone in hearing distance.”
Bill looked dumbfounded. Ben had no doubt that this was the first time
in a long, long time that anyone had spoken back to this man, and he just didn’t’
know how to handle it. “I don’t have to
listen to this,” Bill snapped at last, pulling himself together. “I don’t have to listen to the words coming
out of your perverted mouth, and neither does my family.
“DeeDee,” he turned to Ryan’s mother,
who was white as a ghost, “we will be discussing the annuity after this, mark
my words. And the rest of you speechless
bastards,” he rounded on the crowd with a roar, “can all just go to Hell!” He dropped his cake plate on the ground,
turned and stalked off inside. His
immediate family followed him, little Grace actively wailing now that she still
hadn’t been allowed to set her white patent shoes on the ground.
“Minus four,” Joey said with
satisfaction.
What a jackass! It's amazing how one person can spew such nastiness yet wield so much power that the family is afraid to say anything. I am so sorry that you have the misfortune to be related to a man like that.
ReplyDeleteThank goodness for Ben! I don't think I could have been witness to that spectacle and kept my mouth shut either. The unfortunate thing is that no matter who says what, Uncle Bill will continue to be a self-righteous ass.
I just hope that this will help improve his relationship with Cheryl.
Ben's relationships with this family will all take interesting turns in the future. And yeah, it's hard to watch someone act that way, but some family dynamics get established and then stay bad. Ugh. Thanks for commenting, Lynette:)
DeleteThe annuity. Ah, Christ. Spiteful bastard. I was happy (relieved) that Cheryl has developed the skills to calm her son. Gives me hope Ryan won't allow himself to be held captive there forever. Also, talk about a cliffhanger! The annuity!
ReplyDeleteAnnuities. Yeah, family stuff plus lawyers plus some good old fashioned misogyny equals shady business. Stay tuned.
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Too bad Ben couldn't break out the I'm-related-to-Ben-Franklin, and successful-all-on-my-own card...
ReplyDeleteI know, I kind of wanted to, but he didn't think they were worth the effort. Ah well. There are many more people in his future he can impress with that:)
DeleteFrom your comments, Cari, it sounds like this story has quite a ways to go. I think you should start posting twice a week. You know, just so you can get it all out there. I'm only think of you, of course ... *grins*
ReplyDeleteYou are selfnessness incarnate, darling. Don't let anyone else tell you differently.
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What an ignorant asshole. My favorite character is Joey. Kids like this - and I have a son with mild Aspergers - are often much more observant than people think. His "minus one" was direct and to the point.
ReplyDeleteYeah, Joey rocks. At least someone in that family says exactly what they mean.
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